A lot of this year has felt like waiting for the other shoe to drop.
For the cancer to come back. For the next difficult push.
Even after my one year mammogram was clear, I’d lost confidence in my body’s invulnerability. I was sure that having relaxed my sense of urgency, I’d allowed too much stress and too little exercise to wreak havoc. Not a single day went by in the past year that something didn’t feel quite right and left me wondering and worrying. How crazy is that?
So I decided I would get my 2nd mammogram with as little fanfare as possible. I put it on the calendar, didn’t mention it to anyone, and charged in.
At my appointment, I was glad to hear that my hospital had installed a tomocynthesis machine. This is a new kind of diagnostic technology that takes a bunch of tiny slices of images across the whole breast and then puts them all together in a series so that there is nowhere that small tumors can hide.
Here’s a website that has an example: http://www.dailymotion.com/video/xiv28j_hologic-breast-tomosynthesis_news
When the news came back that there was nothing to worry about, I was elated.
I kept my cool until I got to the bathroom and then I leaped around in a manner that would have earned me a fine for ‘excessive celebration’ on any football field.
Sometimes when the other shoe drops, it’s a gorgeous red pump that leaves you standing strong on two feet.
Since then, my resolve to do all the right things for my body is even higher, but it comes from a place of happiness instead of fear. Thanks to some amazing technology, I won’t be spending my year worrying about something that might have been missed.
Here’s to knowing, rather than worrying.
And to believing in a future that has you standing strong,
enjoying the good stuff.